Life Is Ruthless

     That is what a lot of people have to deal with, how life is ruthless. And how painful & heartbreaking it can be. Sometimes you win, nut mostly you lose. Lose the feeling of laughter, friendship. Lose your own family to death, lose your own father because he says your a waste of his time. And sometimes you lose the feeling that every thing will be OK. God is so powerful that he can turn good into bad and vise verse. But right now he allows bad things to happen so greater things can come out of it. Having to be the man of the house early to watch over your mother, when she should be taking care of her child.

     Life is ruthless like being plastered by a hit from Ray Lewis.

      And life will hit you so hard like your being steam rolled by Adrian Peterson. But instead of wearing 28, he wears 25 on the back of his jersey. Instead of being called "All Day", his alter ego is "RED".

That is friends with you before, but you get on the field of play, he becomes your worst nightmare.

He hopes through all the bad that has, and is happening, he prays that God will make him a pro RB.

So that way he can make someone else feel like they are being viciously attacked.

How would you feel if life was so bad, it feels like society is stomping on you with sharp cleats.

    It feels really really tear able, but even though he only has a mother to run to now he also has God, which protects him & loves him unconditionally, & that is what keeps him going.

   He is a follower of Jesus Christ, and encourages people to become followers and to strengthen there relationship with God as well.

   And he thanks God for using him as his tool, especially through football.

    He proves every day that just because his skin color is not black it doesn't mean he can't play running back.

    With full ride scholarships to several private schools, just so he can play the sport that he loves.
 
      And, where RED comes back out for his time to shine.

       But he can't because of his moving situation. Not even knowing where he is going to live, but he doesn't care th new man of the house looking after his mother. This is a tough life.

      This is the life of Jeffrey C. Godwin
       AKA= RED

     Life is ruthless.

   Alot of things have happened over this school year! And it all was bad. My real father will have a relationship with his 2 other kids but he won't have anything to do with me. My step brother getting caught  smoking dope while my friends were over. Now I have to move back to Fayettville n.c. Because my mom and my step dad are getting a divorce. I have also realize how to tell if people are your real friends or if they are fake and will stab you in the back. I just hope God will bless me making it pro playing football so I can show all these haters what they are missing out on.

    My a lot of people have asked me why am I so religious, and I tell them that God has not just been an inspiration in my life but he also has been my chair  to sit on when I need a break from all this stressful situations. I am a follower of Jesus Christ and I feel like it's my duty as a follower to make and to help people have a better relationship with God. If you do become a follower and you get saved life won't just be you know all of a sudden good. You still are going to have your challenges, not because God punishes you but because he wants to push you through tough times, or he might put you in situations to learn, and or for something good to come out of those bad times. But one of the most important things is that you give God the glory for all the good and the bad things that have happened, happening, or are about to happen. If you do that becuase you need comfort through things and not just because you know it's right, He will continue to bless you with what ever you are good at or continue to bless you with good things that have not happend yet.

Why?

            Not every one knows my flaws, every one wants be be bad breakin the laws. It's not how you start its how you finish, Jesus Christ is like water that helps me replenish. For a guy it's hard not to lust , it ain't really easy finding people who you can trust. Run hard with a clear mind, time is like a movie that every one wants to rewind. You shouldn't judge others Evan if you've if you been through it, get back up on ya feet u betta move it.


             If life gets you down, just pray for some comfort, people needa spread there ideas like a bird that spreads its wings and flutter. How can ya family hate ya, there ya fam, they suppose to luv ya. Mike check 1 2 1 2, u say u wanna fight wut is u gone do. Yall haters is hilarious, feburary 5, AqAqA Aquarius, , yall dudes is so delirious,  some of these events in life are various. Y u gotta hate, y can't u luv, god's luv is better than luck from 2 white doves.

Free style

               ain't got no respect, you oh ya baby mama dat check, it wuznt no car crash but it still wuz a bad wreck. I don't screw around, cuz im real son, da past is da past burh whats done is done, u like a doughnut, bein dipped in coffee, Diz feild is my sancurary, where i give the lord my all, make head hurt but u wont grab dat Tylenol, u talk a lotta trash, u thought u had it all all, come yesterday i kissed yo girl at da mall. you like a lawyer who can't get there client off, my roar is so loud, louder than a horses trough.

Hunger Games Movie Review.

               The movie left out a big portion from the beginning of the book. It never show all the events leading down to as why Katniss needed to go to Peeta Melark's bakery to get some bread for her family.

                Why did the people in the capitol look so weird and pale? Its as if they had no life or they were being something that they were not? 

                Leaving some parts out probably made the movie shorter than what it really was men"t to be. Although maybe if they did ad those parts that were in the book the movie would have been longer than anticipated.  

The house of the scorpion page#59

I learnd a new word that is not a fig.lang word. It is Eejit, and it is Irish slang for being an imbosol, or just acting stupid. The sentence that I found this in was, Matt you are so eejit you put the left shoe on the right foot.

TO MUCH HATERS

            Bow! Back on the front lines at school, they think that talkin all dat trash goin behind your back is cool. They really don't care how you are fellin, don't let them get you, bounce back tell em get out of ya face cuz there breath is killin. People in this world will hate on ya, really ain't that delightful, don't understand why yall's wack @1# gotta be so $#@% spiteful. Just quit hatin, cuz dats really agravatin, feels like yall just make my feel bloody while your rakin. The bright side the haters won't be nuthin if dey keep it up, dey sippin on there haterade that sip outta there 2 cent cup.

The Dead beat father, who is not a man

who only sees 2 of his kids, which is not his whole fam.

 Saying I'm a waste of his time, but he be looking for me when it's my time to shine.

The hurt the pain my mother went through, only makes you wonder if all the rumors are true.

But the one thing that is really sad, is when the 1 person doesn't want nothing to do with you is your real dad.

Running Back

The art, the passion

the rush,the grind,

the urge and anxiousness, to even run blind

the haters, the naysayers

the followers,and the fans.

Every minute, every second

every yard, & every inch

makes you stride to be great.

Every tackle you break, every stride you make

makes it easy to realize,

playing running back is a tough passion to play.

This is me

    Whats up with the haters being so spiteful, makin fun of me talkin that trash really ain't so delightful. Stop man, I hate racism attackin me, it's beat up how white running backs ain't in football's anatomy. Me & Mama have been through so much, That re re mike i hold onto like a clutch.If my boy weston can live through a car crash, then i can push through the hole the haters have stabbed in my back. Day Day is my twin, Tarus is my daddy 2, both helped me have heart for that touch down I can run to. Yall need to grab hold of reality, when I make it big haters don't come runnin after, wantin some money.

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Can't Go Wrong With A Twix

Once upon, a time there was a running back named Jazzy Jeff. He wore the number 25, and he was a 23 year old rookie in the NFL. He wasn’t like all the other Players who celebrated when ever they scored. No, instead of touchdown dances after he scored he went to the sideline and ate a Twix candy bar. Touchdown after touchdown he had the same routine every time.Except one.

    In the last game of the regular season he had scored 5 touchdowns and all of them he celebrated by eating a Twix, but not the last one. After he scored his last touchdown he went to the side line and looked for another Twix but wait. It was gone!!! He saw one of the lineman eating eat.Furious & betrayed ,he said,   “You fatty’!!! said Jazzy.

“Why are you always eating”? “You eat before the game, during the game, on the field when we play, even after we play”. “You could lose a few meals”.The lineman looked at Jazzy disappointed and said, “you have got to be kidding”! Jazzy looked at the Twix rapper and said. “you have to be kidding!” “That was 10 Twixes you ate”.  Jazzy was upset that he couldn’t celebrate his last touchdown with a twix but, curiously, he walked to the other part of the sidline. YES!!!!! said Jazzy.  One last Twix! Jazzy not only won the game for his team, he was also reunited with his luscious Twix, he lived happily ever after.    THE END.

Writing Reflection

Top 3 posts: Hunger Games Chapter18, Giving The Big Man The Glory, Dead Beat Father.

Best Post That Shows My Creativity: Giving The Big Man The Glory. I think that this post show my best writng strengths because, it shows how I conbine relgion with sports and also events that might heppen in real life.
Explane the part that shows your growth:  I hope that this hole dad experiance is a sign from God that he will bless me with children of my own because i wan't to be a better father to my kids than my biological father was never to me.

Prove that this shows growth: This shows trumendes growth because I could never share or tell my fealings with something like this goin on. But put negitive feeling into feelings of forgiveness really helped me alot.
 

Links to student blog: http://jswagger34.blogspot.com/2012/01/how-to-give-big-man-glory.html

haters love me

        Man yall haters is hilarious, just cause I was born in February meens dat im Aquarius. How dare you sit and act like is if  your holier     than thou, but here I made it big, and you guys want somethin to do with me now. I don't understand why you guys  are so hateful,  no matter what im going through grandma, and god are my gardian angles. You taunt me guys just let me do me, you say I suck, really don't but come to the next game and you will see. 

          Every one knows me through the game, I made my point across that the way I play ain't lame. Reverse this, I give blind to the sight full, like Jesus Christ, all the 11 guys on the field are my disciples. I'm not afraid to admit my sins, cause  every one lies, my number is 25 and I wear it with pride. When you stabbed me in the back, felt like I was dissed, but just remember when people turn on you remember this, If you make it big they with you for two things, fame and money, the girls will act like they love, and even call you honey. Just remember to do right, live by JESUS CHRIST. hello out there can you here me? I'm singing S.O.S. so let me be me, cause y'all act like it's a brezzy but realize that life ain't easy.

football + life = srtuggle

    Like football, life is hard. It's kind of like as your a running back trying to plow his through the defense. Fighting for that extra yard, or fighting to to feed your kids. It's a day to day struggle to survive, hoping to make it through. Being tackled at full speed is like a nasty car wreck, and scoring a touchdown is like getting a huge paycheck bonus from your job. Any way can lead to happiness, anger, and sadness. But motivation is the real reason why people who are struggling make it through every day. whether it be at home, at your job, or on the football field.  Faith in the man upstairs and hope will motivate you to continue to keep going no matter how bad or good things might seem.

DEAD BEAT FATER.

I don’t know why you trippin, you sittin on your fat butt, and im out here spittin. You just another hater that i got to  prove wrong. You didn’t want nothing to do with me for 14 years that time is long.

You threatened to hurt my mother when she was pregnant with me. Does that make me want to fight you, definitely.  I don’t want to be called your son. Don’t bother me if I make it big, whats done is done. People say i can’t do nothing but with god I can, you lazy bum you need to realize,  I am what I am. Unlike you I ain’t afraid to achieve greatness. You messing with the wrong child you made you, better learn this. Quit letting your wife fight your battles for you. Found out that my lil sis is your daughter, that makes 3 kids not 2. I hope  god blesses me with kids one day. that way when people ask if I'm like you as a father they'll say  NO WAY. People are always crying on my shoulder, come to my school, talk to my teachers and I'll smack you with a ruler. Bottom line is you need to lose some weight. Dude you needa get on that treadmill, not eat chocolate cake. Why do you run away from ya problems. I wanna be me but you try to hold me down like one of them. Father? man what kind of word is that, you aint got no job you white and lazy trailer park trash. You think you all that  making my mom really sad, listen hear buddy you straight up whack. Don’t worry bout that just let me be free, but mike you better hope i don’t catch you in my streets.

When i visit my home town I look for you, turn and turn. Man i don’t really rap im just good with words. Why you gotta do this just be a man, Don’t bother my family no more, I’m Lee D’s grandson, boy you needa understand. When i make it big don’t bother to find me, im 14 goin on 15 don’t spreed no time sheets.

How to give THE BIG MAN the glory

  When i was 14 i found out my dad wasn't my real dad. My real dad doesn't want anything to do with me. That can only make you feel like the world is just coming down and attacking you, because nobody wants to know that their mom or dad does not want them. I saw a picture of my dad, he was a little over the average height, pumpkin orange hair, and white skin as pale as a cancer patient. My mom protected me from that raggaty person. Knowing someday that she would have to tell me , but she kept it a secret for my own good. The way she told me was, after school at the begining of the school year. I had gotten a student informatin sheet. It said on there that my step father who I thaught was my real father was my step father. so i called my mom and she broke the news to me when she got home from her college classes.

    Fnding this out at 14 was devastating, especially going through football season. Being over shadowed by some players really didn't help me at all. being over shadowed meaning that the coach wouldnt let my try out at the position that I have played all my life(running back) , and there was this one player that the coach thought was the best player to come out of kannapolis. He said I just didnt have the stature or the "color" to play that position. Basically he was saying because I was not black I could'nt play what I wanted to play. I have a lot of  "friends" that has turned their back on me and who have became haters. But just being able to play football was my own way of giving God the glory for all the bad and all the good that has happened, and because of that he allowed me to start in another postion for the team. Hearing the roaring crowd of excitement filled me with an emotion that words just can't describe.
   They say I cant play football or I'm not good at it but when they see me and I say "Do I suck now" they can't say anything. I think that God continues to bless me with this talent because I do give God the glory for all the bad and all the good for the right reasons. They say I definitely will NOT make  it pro playing football but I feel like this whole dad thing is motivation and the haters are motivating me to prove them wrong.
    I find the whole "dad" experience a sign from God meaning that I one day might have kids of my own and I hope and want to be a way better father to my kids unlike my biological father was never to me. I am from Fayettville and 1/3 of the kids there don't know who their fathers are. But here in Kannapolis I hear kids and teens say my dad forgot to come pick me up and do this and that. What they don't realize and know is, that they are so lucky just to even know their real father;  thats my philosophy. Now a days kids that don't know their dads or moms would be a pain to some people or a pain to them selves. I just hope that none of my real friends and no one else has to go through what I have gone through and what I am going through. Mike Minter talked to me about how to give God the glory when things are not right,  and how to have hope. What a lot of people don't really know is that faith in God and hope put together is so powerful, and as long as you have hope and believe in the Lord Jesus Christ you can continue to get up for the next fight. Mter told me this motivational saying when i broke my ankle and since then i was able, and still able to this day use that analogy to help through my little bumps in the road, becaues no matter how big or small your problems are none of them are as big as God's love.
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